Im graduating...TOMORROW!

Today was a pretty good day. Graduating tomorrow, and I could have just Twittered this. LOL.

WAK110307... until... *sigh.

So.. I haven't blogged in a while.. But I have alot to let out...

It hurts to know that the person you love so much, the person that you had a relationship.. that person which is your very first TRUE love, and had so many experiences with.. thinks that everything we did.. was NOT worth it... That hit me real bad.. I've been bawlin' since I was at Keiths house, in the car, and when I got home, until now.. To know that something so big to someone, where it's basically your everything, from tendencies to what you're thinking in your head, can be minimized and erased, basically turning it into nothing.. It really sucks when you're lead on to thinking you have a bright future with someone, having it planned, the little activities that we would have done, how many kids we would have, even their names.. for both boy and girl..

I thought I had a future with someone, but it turned out to be nothing.. to that particular person that is.. If only I knew what to do... Couldn't even have the chance to look her in the eyes, give her a hug, give her my last kisses... The last "I love you" that the both of us would walk away with... And here I am crying over.. and over... and over again... What the hell am I holding on to? To her, there seems to be nothing there... I really need a reality check.. but the reality of it is, I still love her to death.. All those moments we spent together, everything we did, everything we talked about, the arguments, the make ups.. I cherished every fuckin moment of it.. and yet I'm still accused of not caring.. Which is due to my lack of self-control.. Can't hold my damn actions back for shit, wish I'd focus more on whats right rather than being sucked into the heat of the moment...



Why would I want to move on and try other girls to see what makes me happy? Its not like im trying on clothes... It's a god damn heart to heart thing.. The higher our love was for each other, the harder the drop was.. for me that is. I cant do anything but fuckin cry, look at old pics, and take a look back at once was with the videos we have... Hearing the "I love you's" along with the laughter and smiles.. the happiness we once had between us as a couple... Its so hard to say goodbye to someone that you thought would be there for the rest of your life.. You're basically losing someone that meant so much to you...

I miss the past.. when we would cupcake and talk for hours on the phone until we fall asleep on each other.. But that's over with now, isn't it?... Can't bring that back to life.. Everything is so different now.. So serious.. Too many fights, too many arguments.. but to me, it was all worth it... EVERY minute of what we had together..

First summer.. Didn't get to spend it with you.. Now this summer... I dont get to spend it with you... but on a way more sadder type of note... because i KNOW you don't want to be there.. I had so many plans to visit you, especially since I would be able to drive soon.. before we know it, Fall will hit... We'll both start school.. a new beginning.. a fresh new year.. but you're still going to be there, lingering in my head, I know this for sure.. Past, present?... Now where'd the future go?...

*Sigh.. I lost my train of thought... too much crying.. too much wiping.. too much thinkin and now my mind's jumbled around.. I'm graduating soon.. and you won't even be there to cheer me on and congratulate me, I wanted YOU to be a part of the memory of my graduation.. That's not gonna happen..

*I'll continue this whenever.. All I'm doing is crying... its too hard on me..*

Recap on the days.

4/25/09

OMGWTF?! A zombie! Oh its just RR. Hahah, Saturday was fun as hell. It was my Brother's celebration for his 26th Birthday. Wow, he's old. Haha! In the morning I had my Skyline appointment so that I can get the courses I need and stuff. After that my Mom just dropped me off at home and I waited until people arrived.

RR, Daniel, Brandon, Kim, and My Brother were the first to arrive and we all just chilled for a bit. We went downstairs and ate some pizza then they put some stickers on our backs with celebrity's names. That was really fun once everyone came through, it was a good social game to get everyone talking. I'm going to want that at my party if we have it at my house or wherever. I was Bradd Pittt (Yes, with three T's) and then Toby McGuire. Freakin RR took forever for his people, and he had Borat and Spiderman, hahah!

After my Brother cut his cake and all that good stuff, we headed over to the park to play them zombie games! HELLA FUN! Too bad the windy weather rained on our parade, haha. But here are some pictures that can talk about the day for you.

That was some good fun, no doubt yo! We picked up all the Nerf gun ammo after that, along with the bombs and such. Super duper windy, hands were too freezing to play, haha. Got home, uploaded the pictures, and then worked on D-Sepshun's music video along with video blog. Chilled and everyone dipped after a while, RR slept over, played video games, editted stuff, recorded random MGS4 dialogue with RR, called Babe to see what she was up to, and then headed to sleep.

4/26/09

"Woke up at about noon just thought that I had to be in compton soon..."

Yeah, woke up around that time and I dont remember ANYTHING that afternoon except for eating.. Hahah! Got ready and headed over to RR's house because it was Ben's birthday. That was cool, I was still hella full from the other day though. R's Mom makes some dope Strawberry Milkshakes! Yummy. Stayed there until 10:30ish, was playing Left4Dead the whole time, that game's the shit on the computer. Especially Survival mode. That was pretty much it for that day, went home and called Baby around 12:30ish because we haven't really gotten to talk much anymore. Slept after that, fucking school.. How horrible.

4/27/09

Today was an alright day. Not much happened except alot of Prom stuff accomplished for me. During 2nd period we were watching some shit about Crystal Meth. Thats one crazy ass fucking drug, Thai people be using it to stay awake just to work.

The rest of the periods I had were just worksheets and other crap. Photo was cool, just helped people with photoshop. Fucking Souji and his damn dog though! If you haven't seen it, its fucking wonderful. http://www.taimaishuuyo.blogspot.com/ HAHAHA! Gets to me everytime I see it. Fuckin Myspace ads, foreal.

Right after Photo, I went to the parking lot to pick Prom money up from my Dad, went to Cashier, got that cleared, headed over to Ms.Amos' office, she looked at my papers, looks at me and goes "Oh my god! She's so cute!" And then I just laughed, said thanks and she signed it. Followed her over to the Councelors office and bought Baby and I's tickets! Hurray! Got that part done.

The other classes were boring, nothing to talk about. Ugh, Mondays.

After school, Dustin and I headed over to the Pasteo place, bought that and went over to Keith's. Dustin had after school class so I chilled at Keith's. We just kicked it for a bit, then headed back over to the damn Pasteo place because Keith wanted one, but then he bought me a fuckin bucket of ice cream, make that two since he bought one for himself also. LOL! Some fatasses though fosho. T'was good. Tavu came through and we all chilled, then George, then Ching.

I got picked up and by my Mom and we headed over to Nicoles to pay for my Tuxedo and stuff. I seen Vanessa, Monroe, and Vince there then freakin Francis and Keith come through after a few minutes, and I'm like "What the hell?! Did you guys follow me?!" Hahah. Nicole measured me and stuff, 25$ for down payment, and now I have to save money for pictures, and for the Corsage, Boutonierre, and Guarder set. Headed home with mi Madre and here I am now.

Look out for the Mixtape guys, for sure.

Pop Pop.mp3

Hurrraaaay!

Baby came down today, but lets start off from Photo class since I pretty much slept throughout Health.

Photo was alright, just chilled and talked to Baby on AIM, had a mini photoshoot with Angelo Infante for my mixtape cover. I have an A- in that class, thank god! Dang Ms. Wong be losing my papers like ALL the time. After that, it was time for lunch, didn't really do much and Baby was getting ready and then left soon after.

During English, we watched some ending of a movie, but I fell asleep because it was kind of boring to me. Teacher told me to wake up, but I felt awake after that. We worked on our survey stuff and tallied everything, Jay's pretty good at math. Hahah! Didnt need the calculator. After doing all that, I didn't realize that class was about to end and I just felt happy because I knew baby was near.

After school, I just headed towards the stairs, met up with Meli, Dust, and Francis so that we can head over to Colma Bart and pick Baby up. We went to Ranch99 after that because Dustin wanted Siopao. I thought he was going to steal those chocolate tube candy things! Darn, I wanted some!

We headed to Serramonte after that, Baby &I got some food at Quick Grill, sat down and ate our Beef+Shrimp with everyone and then went to Forever 21, Claires, and Charlotte Russe with Baby. Met up with Meli, Dust, and Francis at the Pet Shop and headed towards the car. We chilled in there for I dont know how long, but Babe seemed mad so I didn't really want to annoy her any further.

We drove around Jeff's parking lot and ended up going to Keith's house, had a good time just being with Babe. Wish we could have that more often! Meli, Baby, and I were waiting for Francis because we had to drop Babe off. She made some excuses for her parents and it all worked, good thing I had the idea of dropping her off to home instead of school! Darn, I really didn't want her to leave, but there's always next time! I miss you baby! :(

After dropping Babe off, Melissa wanted to eat at Tops in San Mateo, I had a Teriyaki Cheeseburger. Meli's Bacon Sandwich thing was better though, wish I ordered that instead. I lost signal for a while in that place, sorry Babe! Then went home after eating with Francis and Melissa. Thanks for dropping Katelyn off Francis! Appreciate it, but tell me if you have to do something else next time so she's not panicking! Haha! But all that matters is she made it home safe and no trouble.

Wonderful.

Yesterday was wonderful.

Chilled at home and waited for the right time to leave to go watch a movie and have dinner with Baaaby. While I was waiting, I was just looking for the Prom paper to give to Baby. Midnight on the Bay! Who0o! Prom's named after my song. I told my mom that the movie was at 5:30, then we left at 4:50.

When we got to Sunnyvale, we just waited by Artegas because my Mom wanted to take a nap. We just waited for Chie, Zach and Baby. Once they were near, I woke my Mom up and we went to my Wifey's house and just chilled there for a bit.

We left for AMC and I watched The Haunting with Babe while my Mom went shopping at TJ Maxx. Before the movie started, I went out to get some Kettle Corn, but there wasn't any at the concession stands. When I checked at one of the stands, I seen Patrick and he offered me anything, so I just took something light. Thanks Patrick! The movie was fail, it wasn't scary, what's with these movies now-a-days? It's okay though, first movie with mi Love.

After the movie, Baby and I went outside and then headed towards TJ Maxx and found mi Madre's car. We hid behind some cars and tried scaring her. I think she got startled but not as scared as Baby wanted her to be. Hahah! We ate at Yo Yo Sushi after that, my Fuji Volcano thing was goood! That was another first Wifey and I had, nice!

After that, we just dropped Baby off. Darn, I wish we could've just taken her home with us. Ahah!

;D Happy 17Months Baaaby! I love you! <3

April fools?

Today was chill.

Woke up at 8:05 to wake Baby up. Was just online til 8:30 and then got ready and headed off to school at about 9:15.

School was alright, didn't do much during tutorial except for read Twilight. It was really quiet and the loud people weren't there so I actually got far this time. Thank god! I can catch up to Baby. While I was reading, Mr. Gold went up to me and was amazed that I had one of the best Notebooks out of all the classes and I was 1/10 of the people who had the best. I was pretty proud of myself, that's probably why I did all the notes during that class. That notebook got a 225/230 Boooy!

At lunch I was wondering where everyone was while I was just at the stairs by the basketball courts. Instead of waiting, I just headed towards the library and found Melissa, Dustin, and Francis. We went to the library and I paid off my book bills. Wo0oho0o! $1.50 for an over due book. Atleast it's not like those people who have to pay $50+ OUCH! After doing all that, we headed to the Attendance Office where Ms. Amos was, and I got me a Guest Pass Form for me and KatelynBaaaby! PROM HERE WE COME! Haha, well.. Just a little bit closer, still gotta pay for the Prom Bids.

Meli and I headed to Ms. Tillery's class after lunch, that was pretty cool. I was messing with people's screens at the teacher's desk as I was correcting papers. Hahah! It's fun sending them messages too. Stupid Micheal though! Never shows up to that damn class so I end up having to do all the work. That's pretty much all I was doing throughout that period, correcting papers. Blah.

During Mr. Delion's boring ass Algebra II class, we had a test. Ahh, I didn't know shit! I wish I listened to Francis and transferred over to Mr. Berg. I don't learn shit from Delion. Dustin knew some stuff so he was helping me out. It sucks, no one knew what they were really doing so most of the class basically guessed.

Afterschool, Francis picked Meli, Jazz, and Myself up so that we can go to Stonestown. Our time was limited so we didn't really find a Tuxedo place, and I don't think the Meli and Jazz liked the dresses over there. We went home soon after that, Francis dropped me off and then I ate me some tocino! YUM!

Oh yes, I have to study for my Permit test, I'm scheduled for April 8th.

Sun's Shinin.

So basically, I woke up at 6:30 and woke my girlfriend up for school. I stayed in bed until 7:20ish? I was calling my girlfriend around that time, and then decided to head to the shower. She called back while I was in the shower, but I missed the first two calls because I didn't realize it was vibrating. I called her back even if I was in the shower because I'd love to talk to her anytime possible. After that, I just got ready and all that then headed to school.

The weather was good, not too hot, not too cold, and just right. The sun was shining and I could feel the heat against my skin. Feels like the day's going to be swell.

I was about 5 minutes late, just walked in and sat down, we watched Changeling. That movie's pretty good, sad too. Poor woman, was treated wrong by... Nevermind I don't want to ruin anything for you movie lovers.

Photo was boring, just went to the computer lab and played some bomberman game with Ching. The rest of the day was alright, just chilled by the parking lot at lunch and labbed. During 6th period we were being recorded for Mr. Cortez' self. He wants to be a better teacher, he's pretty good though. I dont think he needs to change anything except for assigning more essays. School was over after some worksheet where we had to find out which person was that real individual, pretty interesting.

After school was pretty cool. Chilled with people, too many guys to name but we were just playing with a basketball and some little small tiny basketball. Paolo and James came through and they were just chillin, idiots got jokes. Haha. "THIIIS DIIICK!" "What's in the bag?" "SHUT THE FUCK UP!" hahah! Good laughs.

One of my favorite couples, but sorry guys WAK is the best couple out there.

After taking that picture, Daniel came to pick Jayson and me up. We drove to Stones and we swooped Dino and Chris up. So much for "3Miles to the studio," Chris! Hahaha! Got to the studio and had some trouble finding speakers, and you take too long Ell! We labbed for a while then we got into some copy my tuts thing, haha. Durkle came and had a session with us, that was pretty cool. Wish I could have stayed longer but it was time to have a dinner at Hometown Buffet with the cousins!

There was traffic on the way back to Stones, sorry if you were late to class Daniel. Once he dropped me off there, I hopped in Ken's car and we headed to Santa Clara. I didn't know it was going to be that close to Baby's house, I wish she could have came, that would have been wonderful. It's okay, we've still got alot of time to do everything! Dinner with the cousins was good, was our first actual dinner together, I appreciate that family time. Ken gave me a ride back home after all that and then we stayed in the car to slap some 'Midnight On the Bay' because he wanted to remember my lyrics. Got home, talked to Baby, watched 'Taking the Stage" with her, and then we played some Balloono. Here I am now typing up this blog and such. Pretty good day, I would say.